To the mama with the shattered heart,
I see you. I feel your pain because I’ve lived it too. That indescribable, unrelenting ache of losing a piece of your heart—a part of you that was never meant to leave so soon. In the quiet moments, when the world seems to have moved on, but your grief still roars like a storm, you may wonder if anyone truly understands.
Grief can feel like an endless pit, can’t it? Some days, it swallows you whole, leaving you gasping for air. The weight is so heavy that even breathing feels like a chore. The “what ifs” echo in your mind, and the dreams you once had for your child now feel like broken glass—sharp, painful, and impossible to piece back together.
But, mama, you’re not alone.
If you’re in the depths of that pit today, I want you to know that it’s okay to feel all of it—the anger, the sorrow, the numbness. It’s okay if you haven’t figured out how to move forward yet. Some days, surviving is enough.
I remember the days when I couldn’t imagine healing, when I couldn’t picture anything beyond my pain. But in those moments, I learned to lean into the One who holds all things together. I cried out to God—sometimes in desperation, sometimes in anger—and, little by little, He reminded me that I wasn’t meant to carry this burden alone.
There is a verse I clung to in the early days:
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." (Psalm 34:18)
He sees you in your grief, mama. He sees the nights you cry into your pillow and the moments you force a smile for others while your heart is breaking inside. He knows your pain because He, too, lost His child.
Grief doesn’t go away, but it does change. It softens. It makes room for hope. I want you to know there is light, even if you can’t see it now. One step at a time, you’ll learn to carry the memory of your precious baby while finding joy in the life that still surrounds you.
Take your time. Give yourself grace. And when you feel like the pit of grief is too deep, reach out—whether it’s to God, to another grieving mom, or to someone who will sit with you in your pain.
At the Caislee Rylin Foundation, we’re here for you. This space was created with moms like you in mind because no one should walk this road alone.
You are loved. You are not forgotten. And your baby’s life mattered—matters still.
Sending you so much love and grace,
Caislee's Mama
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